You ever go back through your gallery to look at the stuff you made several years ago? Like, just to see how you were, what you were into, and all that jazz? You'd think it would be all nostalgic and heart-warming. I decided to start cleaning up my gallery and man oh man.....I wish time travel was a thing so I could smack younger Kage.
You know how the internet finds a new favorite word every year or so, right? This year's word is, accurately, CRINGE. There was so much garbage I forgot about! And I'm not referring to the drawings that looked like they were made with a graphing calculator; no one pops out of the womb painting like Michelangelo anyways. The artistic quality wasn't what gave me bacillary dysentery; it was the stuff that I drew. The whole time I was clearing up my page, I was thinking, "WHY. ON GOD'S GREEN EARTH. DID I THINK THAT WAS A GOOD IDEA."
I really have no idea how much of my old stuff I've deleted. I know, that's not really a good thing to do, but it's not like I deleted things I simply didn't like. I like to believe I've exhibited a lot of self control, because if I had deleted all of the stuff I didn't like then I'd have little over a dozen drawings left in my entire gallery. Mostly I deleted things that were either outdated character bios, stories that have been scrapped for years, or things that were just downright not okay. That's a very vague way to put it, but let's keep it that way for now. I like keeping the old stuff up as a reminder that I AM actually getting better at drawing, albeit somewhat slowly.
But going through all of that really got me thinking...when did I stop being so hyper? When did life kick me in the gut and say, "Dude, settle down you friggin' spaz." I'm still very passionate about things, but it's like somewhere along the line something made me express it differently. That weeb phase that I hit in my early teen years, man...now that was some shit.
If there's anything positive to say about young me, it's that I actually posted roughly four times a week. Now it's a miracle if I can post four times a month. I'll have to fix that soon.
Anyways, just wanted to throw this out there in case people started wondering why my gallery's smaller. I'll probably get to work on some more fan art until I can get my own stuff in order.